Artwork 2022-2023
Primarily using photographs that are tied to specific memories or spaces over time, Vadakan is inquiring about the life her family has built and lost over the years. The works diverge into two main subjects: first a goodbye to her uncle who drowned suddenly on a family vacation in Thailand; the second an ode to her mother and the life within the apartment Vadakan’s grandparents have lived in for the past fifty years. The works strive to try to find a presence in the unspoken that parallels the photographs, contemplating how unprocessed grief or trauma transgress over time.
Memories of grief leave a void in their wake, memories of tenderness and trauma sculpt a person. A metamorphosis in the perception of how we view memories over time occurs through fractures in time, space, and reality. To evoke the emotional connotations and break apart the real space, colors of abstracted forms, fractured spaces, liminal spaces, and transfigured figures are used.
The repetition of the abstracted forms and roses are motifs that illustrate a bloom of adversity in life and the presence of loss. The motif of parallel worlds of outward presentation and inward emotional deconstruction begin to elaborate on the hardships and sentiments within the family lineage. By obscuring the time and space in the images Vadakan has emphasized the connection between her family history and their internal strife.
The works are made using charcoal and soft pastel, the delicacy of the medium relates directly to the fragility of life. The velvet black of the charcoal creates deep voids that honor the stillness of time and space. Using contrasting compositions creates a film noir effect that emerges, allowing for the quietude of the pieces to harmonize with the melancholy they represent. The medium underscores the impermanence in life and dedication to traditions being passed down.